As I sit here and usually talk about my baby, this time I want to reach out to those of you who haven’t been able to have any. Infertility can be a very lonely, lonely place. I know, as I have been there myself. There were times I felt like I was alone and nobody understood my pain and frustration. I’ve had my moments when I would hear that someone was expecting, and I would cry and question “Why not me?” There were times I would literally kick and scream to God that it’s unfair that I’m not having a baby, when I know I would be a great mom. I too questioned “What if I can’t have children?” It truly is one of the worse feelings to feel. Infertility honestly stole my life. It consumed every part of me physically, mentally, and spiritually. Infertility is a disease, most people don’t realize that, but it had changed me forever. It affects more women than people know. I had some people tell me that I was less of a woman because I couldn’t bear a child. That didn’t help my feelings of feeling like I wasn’t a woman, because I couldn’t give my husband what he wanted. Our marriage was rocky because we both wanted it so badly. And, in a way, I can admit I was acting out in the wrong way because I couldn’t have the one thing I wanted so badly. And I’m not going to tell you just give it time or just stop trying then it will happen. Nope! I heard that enough times as well. What I want you to know from this is, you are NOT ALONE. Regardless that I have my rainbow, miracle baby, I was there not that long ago. Also, something I will always tell anyone struggling with infertility is, have faith in God and trust him and his timing.
“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.” Mark 11:24
Just like that story of Abraham and Sarah in the Bible. Genesis 11-21 They were already very old, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. They were almost in their hundreds. But Abraham obeyed God and God promised him a son, Isaac with his wife.
Obey God and it doesn’t matter if doctors or anyone says you are past the age of childbearing, if it’s in God’s plan to give you a child, he will make it happen.
Infertility Awareness Week April 21-27