What Infertility Felt Like

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As I sit here and usually talk about my baby, this time I want to reach out to those of you who haven’t been able to have any.  Infertility can be a very lonely, lonely place.  I know, as I have been there myself.  There were times I felt like I was alone and nobody understood my pain and frustration.  I’ve had my moments when I would hear that someone was expecting, and I would cry and question “Why not me?”  There were times I would literally kick and scream to God that it’s unfair that I’m not having a baby, when I know I would be a great mom.  I too questioned “What if I can’t have children?”  It truly is one of the worse feelings to feel.  Infertility honestly stole my life. It consumed every part of me physically, mentally, and spiritually.  Infertility is a disease, most people don’t realize that, but it had changed me forever.  It affects more women than people know.  I had some people tell me that I was less of a woman because I couldn’t bear a child.  That didn’t help my feelings of feeling like I wasn’t a woman, because I couldn’t give my husband what he wanted.  Our marriage was rocky because we both wanted it so badly.  And, in a way, I can admit I was acting out in the wrong way because I couldn’t have the one thing I wanted so badly.  And I’m not going to tell you just give it time or just stop trying then it will happen.  Nope!  I heard that enough times as well.  What I want you to know from this is, you are NOT ALONE.  Regardless that I have my rainbow, miracle baby, I was there not that long ago.  Also, something I will always tell anyone struggling with infertility is, have faith in God and trust him and his timing.

“Therefore I tell you, whatever you ask for in prayer, believe that you have received it and it will be yours.”  Mark 11:24

Just like that story of Abraham and Sarah in the Bible.  Genesis 11-21 They were already very old, and Sarah was past the age of childbearing. They were almost in their hundreds. But Abraham obeyed God and God promised him a son, Isaac with his wife.

Obey God and it doesn’t matter if doctors or anyone says you are past the age of childbearing, if it’s in God’s plan to give you a child, he will make it happen.

Infertility Awareness Week April 21-27

8 thoughts on “What Infertility Felt Like

    1. mommyatlast Post author

      Sorry she struggled with Infertility. I would never wish Infertility not even on my worst enemy. Most difficult thing to go through. So happy for her! Love hearing stories of miracle babies like my own.
      Take care and God bless,
      Valarie

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  1. Stacy

    I struggle with infertility and PCOS. My biggest struggle is knowing where are the limits? Do I try clomid? Invetro? If that doesn’t work how far do I go with fertility meds? At what piont am I “playing god” and what piont am I doing what my Dr. Says is the next option to try next?

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    1. mommyatlast Post author

      I totally hear you girl! I as well have PCOS on top of everything. Feel free to check out my other infertility blogs. I explain what I went through and what I use. I was on Clomid for 3 1/2 years it definitely took a toll on me. Check them out. I’m so sorry you are going through this. I was there, I can feel your pain. I will be praying for you and that miracle baby! Stay strong like you have been cause I know us that have to endure this our only option is to be strong. Have faith in God and trust him!
      Take care and God bless,
      Valarie

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  2. Brittany

    I’ve never tried to have a baby so I don’t know if this is something I will struggle with, but I have seen my friends go through this and it definitely is heartbreaking.

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  3. Catherine short

    Isn’t that scene from UP heartbreaking? Infertility is so personal and everyone responds differently. It was hard to hear from people how they thought I should handle certain obstacles when really all I wanted to hear was validation that it’s a difficult road.

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    1. mommyatlast Post author

      Yes it gets me every time for sure! And I agree 100% everyone handles it differently! I’ll be praying for you girl!
      Take care and God bless,
      Valarie

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