Coming home with a Newborn: Breastfeeding & Acid Reflux Issues!

Life itself was about to change in so many ways.

And we were so ready for it, or so we thought.  We got everything we needed, rooms done, and house clean.  We’re taking our baby home, what could possibly go wrong?  We were talking ourselves up, but I’m sure like any other parents you know something could go wrong.  To our luck a lot went wrong. Grayson started latching wrong, making mama’s nipples so sore, bleed, and scab.  But, I was doing it for my baby and our bonding experience, and of course the benefits from breastfeeding.  I literally cried the whole time.  Us moms have those crying moments and that’s ok, me, I probably have them a little more then normal.  If you know my mom though, now that’s a crier, so I’m a pretty normal crier compared to her.  Haha

I ended up having a lactation consultant come to the house.  She helped a lot with showing me how to get him to latch properly.  To top it off, I have an inverted nipple, so it was making it very, very difficult at times.  Any other mama’s have this issue?  So the lactation consultant suggested a nipple shield.  As much as I didn’t want to, only because I heard of nipple confusion with that, pacifiers, and bottle nipples.  But, the nipple shield was a God send.  It truly helped and kind of gave my sore, cracked nipple a little break.  Also he did better with it.  I got excited we found something and I definitely thought it’d start looking up from here.  Yep not so much.  He ended up choking a lot in his sleep or just laying down flat.  We later found out he had severe acid reflux.  It is the worse thing to have to see him go through.  He would choke so bad that I slept sitting up against the wall, while holding him up on my chest with pillows all around us.  I honestly slept like that for a good 2 to 2 1/2 months with him.  No joke.  My neck and back killed some mornings, but I knew my son was ok, and that’s all that mattered.  Anyways, we’ll come back to his reflux issue.

After about 2 weeks of bringing him home, we went in for his doctors appointment.  We then found out I wasn’t producing enough breast milk and was basically starving my baby.  I hate to put it that way, but that’s basically what was happening.  Not on purpose of course, but he had lost so much weight.  I truly felt like the most horrible mom ever.  When I heard I wasn’t giving him enough milk and he had lost so much weight since birth.  I, of course, broke down and cried my eyes out, yes in front of the doctor and all.  We had thought his crying so much was his acid reflux bothering him.  Now, knowing this made me think it was cause he wasn’t getting enough to fill his little belly.  Worse thing a mother could hear and experience.  And, I was even doing everything the lactation consultants said to do.  I was pumping every 3 hours to get my supply going, eating foods, and drinking drinks that were suppose to help increase.  I was doing everything under the sun.  Come to find out it’s due to having PCOS.  Low milk supply is another lovely symptom from PCOS.  So, the doctor thought it would be best to supplement on top of giving him mommy milk.  We did that and the first time he took a bottle, my sweetie was so content and full and slept so peacefully.  Made me feel better knowing it satisfied him.  As much as I wanted to exclusively breastfeed, it didn’t really work out that way and I came to terms with that.  For the benefit of my son, I did what I felt was best at that time, whether it be formula or not.  Now-a-days you just hear bad about formula fed babies.  Makes them fat, makes them this, makes them that.  Back in the day babies died because the only source of nutrients for them was breast milk and there were moms like me who couldn’t produce enough and didn’t have another option.  So, I thank God for it, and I will forever have a better view and understanding for formula fed babies, because you never know the situation.  Yes, breastfeeding is what God intended; it’s beautiful and baby gets better benefits from it, and I don’t disagree with all that.  Let’s all just have an open mind about both, because it truly saved my baby boy.  Just being able to feed your baby and provide it for him, whether bottle or boob, it is a beautiful thing!  I later just went exclusively with formula as I was still not producing what I should have been.

Back to the reflux issue, now that he was eating more it only got worse.  We ended up getting sent to a specialist in another state.  The visit with them seemed promising, and they prescribed him medicine and a new formula called Nutramigen.  Seemed to help a little bit, but he definitely struggled everyday, and we could never really lay him flat.  Our poor sweetie pie was on medicine at an early age.  It wasn’t what we ideally wanted for him, but, like I said, you have to do what’s best for your child and this was it.  It was definitely a rough start for him, but he has been a fighter since.  God has been by his side without a doubt!

Our next worry was how long will our baby have to suffer with this??

4 thoughts on “Coming home with a Newborn: Breastfeeding & Acid Reflux Issues!

  1. Natalie

    Oh, gosh, I feel you on the breastfeeding struggles. I had an emergency c-section and desperately wanted to stick with breastfeeding since that was the last part of my original birth plan. My daughter was in the NICU, so she was fed through a tube and then a bottle and wanted nothing to do with breastfeeding. I decided to pump exclusively which ended up being one of the hardest things I’ve ever done. Just know that you’re making the best possible decisions for you and your family! 😀 😀

    1. mommyatlast Post author

      Hey girl! First off thank you for sharing a little of your story! I’m so sorry it played out like that. I think another thing we all need to know going into Labor & Delivery is that there could always be an unexpected and may not go as planned huh? As hard as it is cause if your like me, I planned out stuff and so want it go that way. lol but having a baby taught me that’s not possible. haha Us, mamas are some strong women, that’s for sure! And thank you so much for the reassurance! As for you as well, we have to do what’s best for these little darn cute humans of ours, that have us wrapped around their little fingers!! Wouldn’t have it any other way!
      Thank you so much for taking the time to read and comment as well!
      Have a great day and weekend! God Bless you!

  2. Lauren English

    Oh man, it really can be such a challenge! We are about to have our first little one and I’ve heard so much about all the challenges of adjusting to life with a newborn and breastfeeding. Thanks for sharing about your struggles. It reminds me that it’s okay to struggle and if we do have issues, we’re not alone in that!

    1. mommyatlast Post author

      Hey girl!! First off let’s start with a CONGRATS!! Welcome to the most tiring, challenging yet most amazing and beautiful Motherhood!!! Hope all goes well for you, I will for sure keep you in my prayers! How far along are you? Feel free to check out my Labor and Delivery story as well as it has some little tips that I swear by and may help you as well! And yes most definitely reminds us we’re not alone. Even though you may feel alone, just know probably most mamas out there had some breastfeeding issues! It may be hard at first and very tiring but o my goodness my son is now 9 months and it seriously has been the best 9 months of my life even through these hard times. If you ever have any question or just need someone to talk to, I’ll be here or feel free to email me. Contact with me through social media would love to get to know you better and be there for you if that’s something you’d like! Take care and God bless! Have a great day and amazing weekend!


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